I’m very hurt and frustrated.. I don’t get how people can be so mean! The story is supposed to go downhill after this and it goes on to how i hit rock bottom but its getting so hard for me to continue especially with people calling me a “bgara” and a “9aida” and so on.. I know that some probably didn’t mean it bas it still hurts..
To you its probably just another story but its so much more to me. This has been my way of letting go of my past and opening up my heart to people who have been so supportive to me from the beginning and i really appreciate it but now its just too hard, every time i read a mean comment or email a7is galbi maqmot and i just want to cry..
If you have started reading my blog from the very beginning you would see that my very first post says that this story is about my past and that I'm a completely different person now. And i also ask you politely to not judge me, but this is exactly what you guys are doing by calling me names and sending me mean emails..
To be honest I'm not sure that i want to continue..
Sorry to everybody else..
laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa dont say that i love ur story ow ma3liach min a7ad ya3ni kila wa7id is unique ow kil wa7id deals with a situation differently just cuz u were naive doesnt mean ur bgara or 9aida they have no right to say that and a9lan im proud of u for sharing im SURE 100% inah its not easy at all so 6anshaaaaaaaaai this is ur life ow kaifich how u solve ur problems...smile honey ow dont let annoy one put u down...love u
ReplyDeleteAwalan: Sorry Bs 5al Yakloon 5arahom Ili Chithi Ga3d Isawoun Feech =]
ReplyDeleteThaniyan: Ignore The People That Judge You, Malich Shi'3il Ib Kalam Inas, Ilmhm Ina Intay You Know Ina You're A Different Person Now W You Realize Ina You Made A Mistake In The Past
Thalithan: Please Continue The Story L2ni Ga3da 3la Nar Abi A3arif Shi9eer
Rabi3an: I LOVE YOU :*** And I'm Sure Ako Wayid '3airi That Loves You And Your Story
So, Ignore The People That Send You Hate Mail And Mean Comments And All, Trust Me, This Happened To Me And It's Still Happening But I Choose To Ignore Them W Not Think About Them L2na Hathoola Nas Fa'6ya Ma3indihom 7ayat Bs Fal7eelina Ib Hel Bad Commment, I'6a7ir Mi7tareeen Laish Inhom Mayigdiroon Yektiboun Mithlich...
Please Don't Stop With The Story, Winshalla When You Finish It We Read Another One By You L2na Mashalla Your Writing Is AMAZING!
Keep It Up Winshalla Lil A7san, W Again, 3a6eeehom 6AAAAF!
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laaaa 7bebty malch sh'3eel fehooom!!!
ReplyDeletebl 3aaks etha wgftay u will be doing excatly
wat they want !! don't !! walah ana kel yom
adesh u r blog w an6er u r new post;s because
of your story i'v been more careful and less
naive it's a great thing that u r sharing u r
story to make others more aware;s
plllzz dont stop ;s Love u ;**
7abeebti ma3ash eli hurts you aw eza3lich;** Kilshay wala confessions i7na cham confession 3indina? Ba3dain 7abeebti I know it does hurt especially since the story is about you bas it's summer, and with the swine flu people are staying home fa wallah tlageenhum a bunch of kids fatheen thinking they're cool saying whatever they're saying bachir yikbiroon oo yit7asifon, ba3dain if you didn't continue ayeelich lai mm San Fran? Aw whatever state your in oo kick ur ass:p i7naa malna i7sab qura2ich?:p ba3dain ur on ur vacation mama enjoy don't let them ruin it or put you down! I LOVE YOUU:**
ReplyDeletenoooooooo !!!!!! 7abebty ma 3alaich minhom hathail nas mako shou'3el oo fa'6een oo ohma ma yeste7oon
ReplyDeleteu know now inty very good person oo 7mdellah 2ana 3erafty 2ana ily gabel kan mistake
7abeebty walla we all love u ;***
malech shou'el feehom
oo fe wayed nas ga3deen yestefedon WAYED minha
ma 3ash ily e2athech ib kelma
WE LOVE U VERY MUCH ;*****
ok i'm a silent reader, and i've never posted a comment on anyone's blog before, bas i felt like i had to..
ReplyDeleteyou don't understand how much i love you story - it hits so close to home, the way you write fascinates me, and i admire your strength - being able to share what so many people can't seem to be able to do.
you're not '9aida' or 'bgara'.. if anything, you're strong, mature, evolved, and smart enough to have been able to open your eyes, acknowledge the problem, and then re-tell it to people so they don't fall in the trap too..
please don't stop, i know how getting this all out is SO rewarding and self-healing.. worthless comments should not take that away from you.. you do have dedicated readers that feel for you, have their hand out for you to lean on when it gets rocky, and will support you all the way.
we're here for you, we're forming a wall.. you're going to have to take us down if you even CONSIDER giving into giving in to those silly comments ..
Supportive Annonymous
ma 3laich mnhom theyre all worthless beings with no lives..... kaifhom ygooloon elly ygooloonah 7greehom ,... it either theyre jealous or theyre jerks.... we all love u , bl3aks ur story tarbawyya , it shows us many valuable ethics... continue ur story , o dont be upset aout their comments... know were all there for you :)
ReplyDeleteIgnore khal emouton 7ara.. I've read ur story men awl shay post by post ou I've always admired ur personality, I think ur real, optimstic, fun, storng:)
ReplyDeletei second everything supportive anonymous wrote... plus there are so many lessons one can learn from your story... especially when many of the blog stories out there are read by young girls in school..and they make it seem as if having a boyfriend and going out is so right when it's not! i love the honesty in your writing,, it's so realistic,,, unlike the other bubbly-fake stories out there :*
ReplyDeletema3alaiich minhom!!! they're not even worth 1 second of ur day, no YEAR!! il mohim inna there are ppl who love you like me!!!!! hitholla 7ameer oo klaba may3arfoon 8eemtich fa next time just delete their comments oo dont even think about it!!! =D
ReplyDeleteluv you :***
7bebty .. ygolon ... aitha 6o3ent fy al5lf ...fa3lm inka fy almooa8dema..
ReplyDeletethe only different between u and them that u had the COURAGE ... to admit your mistakes.. and reveil your past that i am 100 % SURE that every 1 of us have .
bil3ks what u r doing now is very healthy , and ur not only letting go of the past , u r also warning us from ppl like Fahad ( although i belive that he loved u in his own way ( lal7een hatha ally a7sa)
u said u r a different person now... EVEN if u aren't the same person , and u didn't change, no one have the right to judje u or judje any 1, THEY ARE NOT GOD!
u r so sensitive 7yaty .. and soft mn da5l as well, la t5leen ( ally ma yswa) y2ther feek.
do u know that i refreash your page 5 times/day ( as if i don't have any finals or anything to do in my life ) incase u post a new part from your story
your story is very VERY interesting and although i REALLY want to know the end , ireally like u to t6wleeeenha 3shan nstans feeha.
your request is rejected , and we ( me and hundereds of readers ) r waiting for your new post, better start working on it from now honey ;)
NOOO!!!:(
ReplyDeletewalla walla walla i swear enna i didnt mean to say anything ou i didnt mean to hurt you a9laan, walla ma fakart feha inna the story is about u i know enna yemkin mara7 tefhmeen 8a9de aw mat9dgen aw whatever bas u didnt get it walla mo 8a9de i judge ou agoul chethy bas enna im used to reading stories that are not real yu3ne ohma they made it up fa dayman we judge and say ambay laish swat chethy etc.. 7atta low etla7'6een i said SHE ou i know it sounds stupid coz jude is suppose to be you bas walla ma kan 8a9de yu3ne ana mathjamt 3alaich entay ou gelt u r blah blah it was something 3afawe i swear ou walla u dnt know how much i love your story and 3ade now 8 mn my friends read your story lanna i gave them the link and told them how much ur story is (Y)! walla shway wabche ou a7is bitgoulen shda3wa ur over reacting but its just coz i didnt mean it walla il3a'6eem and im so sorry ou you have to complete it men 9ejich?! a9lan i admire u ou i actually look up to *-) i know that sounded madre shlown bas its true walla.. i was waitting for you to complete your story ou a3airf the end 3ashan a3arif what should i do eb my real life ou shlown at9araf lanna ur story wayed parts feha actually kent a7is enna OMG 7ASSA EB SH3OUURICH!!:( ou when i needed someone lama ma7ad kan yefhmne i just open ur blog and read the part elly 9ej 7asait enna ambay chnich ana over and over again;/ YOUR REALLY STRONG OU SO REAL OU METHEL MA U AFFECTED ME ATW8A3 THERE ARE ALOT OF PPL OUT THERE HAM U AFFECTED THEM SOMEHOW SO DONT STOP WRITTING;/ WALLA YOUR A GREAT PERSON OU ISLOUBICH 7ADDA 7LEW OU U HAVE A GREAT PERSONALITY! WALLA I FEEL SO WAI3 FOR SAYING WHATEVER I SAID BAS I DIDNT MEAN IT, WALLA.. COZ IM YOUR NUMBER ONE FAAN!!:(
AND YEAH ETHA MO IM9ADGTNE HERE YOU http://www.facebook.com/posted.php?id=94516577023 SHOFAY EL DATE ELLY I POSTED YOUR BLOG FEE 6-JUNE YU3NE MO TWA 3ASHAN A8N3ICH ENNA ANA MAYTA 3LA UR STORY IT WAS A MONTH AGO SEE SEE:( I LOVE YOU AND I DIDNT MEAN IT WALLA OU I WANTED EVERYTONE TO READ YOUR STORY BECAUSE ITS REALLY (Y) !! confessions;( walla i feel so bad i didnt mean to say 9ayda.. walla i know enny 3ademat e7sas for saying it, bas everyone makes mistakes 9a7? yu3ne who knew that one word would affect you chethy! i dont wanna be the reason ena my fave blogger stops writting because of me:((.
ReplyDeleteand to prove it akthar..
Confesssions said...
Welcome to the blogosphere!
I'm loving ur story so far, can't wait for more :**
June 9, 2009 3:20 PM
cookies.n.cream said...
Confessions: atsharaf ena my 4th fav. blogger just posted a comment(a)!
thanks:*
p.s: IM LOVING UR STORY WAY MORE! :p
shftaayy i love you!;(
am a devoted reader of your blog and now you r thinking of quiting ...but...... "sobs" :(
ReplyDeletedont stop please and continue ur story plzzz
you started strong...end it with a strong ending too ...infact i dont want ur story to end ;p
waiting ur next posts and hope u post more often like old days
;** o hathy bosa enra'6ech feha ;Pp
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
ReplyDeletefahamteeeny '3alaaa6!!
NOT FAIR! IM ON YOUUUUUUUUUUR TEAM!!!
i didnt give it much thought when i called jood bgaraa.. and i didnt know it would hurt u! i am soooo sorry i never meant it!! '6aag 5ilgy lamman 3araft inna i hurt you!! i love your story.. and your a very brave person to have moved on and to have shared this with us! i am sooooooooo soorry!! and im not gonna delete thaat comment i3tirafan innaa i was wrong.. oo im sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!
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oo malich sho'3el feeny.. 7addy mi7tarra!! kamly 8i9itich :P please.. wallah i didnt mean it!!
ana asfa 3ala el email, eb9ra7a makent mfakra ra7 ta5thena bjad chethe! bas kan wede ashof radat fi3lech shlon,, 3ajabtene yom ma u posted sheno el emails ktben,, walla mbi akn il sibab inech towgfen el writing malech, klna na6ren ur post 3ala nar,,,,
ReplyDeletei crave your blogs, PLEASE DONT STOP!
ReplyDeleteLove you:*
im one of the silent readers, i love ur blog seriousley ! P L E A S E don't stop please! i just addore the way you write n express ur feelings, i never wrote on a blog before bs i just felt that i had to ;)
ReplyDeleteif ur gna continue be sure ill stand by ur side till the end,,
if not, then it's up to u n ill respect ur desicion !;)
jude , kelena marena eb throf sa3ba o elzeman ghayarna sawa2 in good or bad way , wel7amdela dam ena u r different now .. y do u care ? ana a7es ena elblogs mawjoda 3ashan afathfeth , sij ena el comments makes me feel happy o sometimes sad , ykhaloni i want to write more aw stop writting , bs etha 7aset ena ga3den y2athron in a bad way 3ala nafseyty , i'll ashel my mail , o mara7 akhale a7ad y7e6 comment .. i'll just write for writting .. i dont care what do they think about me , asasan they dont know me ..
ReplyDeletelove is blind spacially when u are a teenager o when he's the first love ..
i love u jude o your blog awal blog garaita , o 7abaita .. o etha u feel better not writting..just don't , bs u'll break my heart :(
ma 3aliiiich mnhoooooooom !!!!! ;@
ReplyDeleteintay malich shighil bili 9ar !! kl insan emor ib throf !! o relationships, mo ib ed il wa7ed itha the other person kan 7mar!! sorry bs ohwa kan 7mar!! o intay kintay it7bena !! mo thanbiich ina u loved him ! alla esam7a !! o biyiila yom !!
ama 3la those STUPID PPL WITH THE STUPID COMMENTS SCREW U !! GET A LIFE !!!
mo 3ajbatkom il qi9a then dont read !!!!
ma 3alich mnhom !! ;D
i loved ur story :D
FUCK THIS!! I WROTE A HUGE COMMENT CHAN YI6LA3 CANNOT PROCEED O INMESAA7 :@!!!
ReplyDeleteSorry, kaa i'll type it again;/
I started reading your blog mn bedait my summer holiday, indemaajt garaita ib 2 days o 3a6ait il link my friend b3aad. 7ada indemajt feeh ely a2a5er 6al3aati 3sha akamel :p
Bs kint aby agolech ena i kinda went through the same thing as you, o you know what ? mo mit7asfa 3ala wala shay sawaita..7eta lo adre it was wrong bs te3alamt wayed wayed ashyaa i'm so thankfull i know now. You should do that too. i'm sure your a much wiser person now. o it takes alot of courage to write all of this down, mashala 3alaich thats soo good.
O about the bitches with the bitchy comments, please comment bro7kum, 7adkum yahaaal o you have no idea what it takes and how hard it is to write such stuff down, in detail b3ad. Age9 eedi lo you can do the same thing?! o you say ina ihya 9aida o bgara?! I bet you've done waaay worse things, and don't have the guts to write it all down 7ag il 3moom. Read it, oly comment if you have something good to say. itha you can't do that then do us all a favour o fuck off la t5arboon 3ala baji il readers!
Jude ako more good comments than bad one's, 5al ywaloon.
Love you, tc o please continue :p
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BRING IT OOOOOOOON. Grr.