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It's been 8 years, why do I still carry all this guilt around with me? Maybe its shame? I really don't what it is but it's an ugly feeling. Really ugly.I'm a grown woman now. It's been a year since I've started working and i love it. I feel different. I feel independent. Yet, there is always something that keeps me down.A girl at work recently said to me, "I've never met someone like you before!"

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i think i should finish what i started..are my lovely readers still interested?

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My gorgeous readers!! Walahtaw 3alay? :*I miss you all sooo soooo sooooo much!! I know ini 7adi 7adi mga9ra bas wallah i have a very good reason! I have been so unbelievably busy with jam3a and my final projects and midterms and finals and presentations and graduation and everything else! Ta5ayilaw i've been staying in jam3a sometimes lema bilail and on weekends to work on group projects! I

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  My gorgeous Kindle My Heart has tagged me a few weeks back but I've just come around to doing it. Love ya babe :* and thank you :) Oh and i taaaaag anyone who hasn’t done it yet! Its fun :) (7awo0ory,  Susy Q. :* , Red!, Choco Loco, Love ya, CherriiMuffin,  Captivated, Dariliam, Hanoodaa!, Single, Just-a-Teenager, and everyone who i haven’t mentioned :*** a7ibkom) oh and if you don’t have a

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When i got home after graduation i immediately called Fahad. It was around 12.30 at night.  He let ring for a while and then picked up.   Fahad: “Hala Jude..” Me: “Fahad wainek?"” Fahad: “Bil bait” Me: “No i mean wain ri7t? Why did you leave in the middle of my speech? Feek shay? Did something happen?” Fahad: “Jude, min 9ijech intay??” Me: “Shino? Whats going on? Laish m3a9eb?” Fahad: “

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6awalt 3alaikom? I’m sorry you guys bas it was a really long post to write! It took forever to come up with actual sentences. 3araftaw lema all the events are in your head bas you can’t put them into actual words and then everything you write seems stupid or boring? Btw tara i didn’t proof read it , 7adi malait so please excuse any mistakes or boring paragraphs..Sorry :/ Anyway here it is, the

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I was going to write the Graduation post this time bas that would probably be really long post and would take a long time to write :/ Ill have to postpone it for next time as i don’t really want to keep you guys waiting any longer. Shiftaw ishkether a7ibkom??? :P   So moving on with the story.. Lets seeee… I’m guessing that you guys want to know more about Rashed 9a7? Well… He added me on MSN

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  Hello all you GORGEOUS people in Blog World. I missed all of you soooo sooo much! Wallah you can’t believe how much i miss my blog and all my sweet and wonderful fellow bloggers and followers and commenters and anonymous commenters and basically everyone! A7ibkom :*** Do you guys hate me for being away for so long? :( I have had a really rough couple of months since i came back from holiday.

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I know, wallah adri! I’m soooooooo sorry you guys, 7adi 6awalt 3alaikom bas wallah i have my reasons. It’s the holiday and we barely stayed home when i was in the U.S oo al7een i’m in London oo ham manig3ad bil hotel. Its like faj2a shopping has taken over my mom 9arat shwaya cuckoo bas i’m not complaining :P summer is the only time that i really go shopping oo since i’m graduating next term

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  He’s a douche 9a7? I met up with a friend of mine here in Vegas who is also here with her family, we decided to go see a show. Both of us come to Vegas every summer, I've been coming every single year since i was 8 and my family are big show lovers. Every year we go to at least 1 or 2 shows. We’ve seen all the magic shows when i was younger, ri7na shifna David Copperfield, Lance Burton,

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I’m sooo sorry you guys for not posting in so long bas wallah i barely have enough to even go online! I was in San Francisco last week and now I'm in LA. San Francisco was AMAZING!! It was freeeezing! It was full of hot guys. If you are ever there, you HAVE to go the Cheesecake Factory in Macy’s, the waiters are GORGEOUS! Seriously madri min wain yaybenhom! Kil ma mar our waiter my jaw drops to

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So i was in Nordstrom's today, i was trying on this very cute Nicole Miller strapless party dress that's around 2 sizes too small but somehow i managed to squeeeze myself into it and it magically zipped all the way up! Obviously it was way too small, my boobs were spilling out but i was trying it 3ashan i see if i like it on me 3ashan ya7jizonli another size.. So anyway i call me mom in to see

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Hey you guys.. Thank you all for your support, wallah i didn’t know that my story actually meant something to you guys! And thank you for the people who apologized and for those who sent me emails, it really meant a lot to me.. I really really appreciate everything you guys said, wallah i love you :*** Inshallah I'll continue my story, i won’t let you down :*** this is how much what you guys

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I’m very hurt and frustrated.. I don’t get how people can be so mean! The story is supposed to go downhill after this and it goes on to how i hit rock bottom but its getting so hard for me to continue especially with people calling me a “bgara” and a “9aida” and so on.. I know that some probably didn’t mean it bas it still hurts.. To you its probably just another story but its so much more to

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I stayed home today. I’m sorry that i haven’t posted in so long so i didn’t go out today, its the 4th of July, the mall is za7ma and its Saturday, kil mokan ysaker mbacher. I stayed home in our gorgeous backyard writing and enjoying the weather. I might take pictures of it later to show you oo a7irkum :P One of my readers suggested that i write about my holiday and the places I'm going to.. What

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Hello my gorgeous and fabulous readers! I wanted to say that I'm sorry for not posting for so long. I’m in the States!! I left 2 days after my finals and I've been very tired and jetlagged the first few days. I'm over my jetlag now though :) Thank you to all the people who asked about me the while i was gone :*** Love you guys :*** Inshallah inshaaaallah ill try to write a new post when I'm

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I’ve been tagged by Cupid and Blat, Love you :**** 8 things I am looking forward to: * Finishing exams * Road Trip!! * Vegas baby! * Burgers from Lori’s diner in San Francisco yummm! * Summer shopping in the states. * Swimming and tanning in the lake next to our summer home. * Seeing my friends in LA. * Start reading a new book. 8 things I wish I could do: * Graduate oo aftak :(

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I know i promised you guys a post on Sunday or Monday bas wallah i was busy.. I had a project to work on oo lots of studying to do.. I start finals on Tuesday so i won’t be posting for maybe around 2 weeks.. I’m so worried inna I'm gonna fail one of my classes which would set me back a whole semester! :( id3oli!! I've been in jam3a way too long I'm afraid that i might get kicked out! Anyway good

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Ok so the first session was a bit of a disaster. I think someone even confessed to liking fathers and children, i have no idea what that really meant, so anyway I thought we can try again. DO NOT hold back. Give me one hell of a juicy confession. Please. My confession this time iiiiiss… I once grabbed and squeeeeezed my chemistry teacher’s ass. By accident. I SWEAR!! I was one of the leads

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I should be studying!!! Do you get this feeling of UGGHH its nearly the summer holidays! MALI 5ILG! And you just start skipping all your classes? I stayed in bed today and did absolutely nothing. I feel like a bum. I have a quiz bacher, a midterm on Sunday and two projects to hand in. I’m also thinking of going to the beach on Saturday, is that bad? I’m sooo lazy! Anyways, enjoy.. Love you

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Ladies and Gentlemen.. Do i have any Gentlemen readers? Anywaaaaay.. Remember in one of my posts i wrote about something called a Confession Session that i have with Fahad or my friends? Its this thing we do where we confess stuff to each other. Most of the time our confessions are very embarrassing and we do this leman inkon 7adna day5en oo m5arfen oo we hope that the next day the other person

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I know i said i wasn’t gonna write until after my exams bas i can’t sleep so i thought why not give my readers a little gift? Love you all :**** WARNING! This is a very detailed explicit post. If you’re not comfortable with this then please don’t read. And if you’re young, this is definitely not meant for you. If you really really want to read bas you don’t want any of the naughty stuff then

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    My 17 year old younger brother gave me this masterpiece as a gift last year. It was something that he drew for his art class in school. The topic was draw your idol, someone you admire. I don’t know who the hell was my brother’s idol was but he just looks yummy don’t you think? I mean look at those black teeth and that uni-brow. Gorgeous! Did you notice that his idol wears orange

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Mabrok to all the newly elected women MPs. I am soooo proud of you Kuwait! This has been the main topic in jam3a this week. A lot of my classes started with the “What do you think of women being in the Parliament?” discussion. I am not a political person, i know very little about politics actually but i do like to listen to what people say about it. I was very very very surprised and

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Sorry if its short, I'm just very very busy hal ayam oo i don’t have time to write kilish. I wrote this post today bas I'm not loving it, it was rushed bas mali 5ilg i rewrite, sorry.. This is gonna be my last story post for a while, its nearly time for finals and i just don’t have time and i need to focus bas i promise you that awal ma a5ale9 my exams I'll start writing very frequently mithel

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So what happened to.. Love ;** ? and Teenager At Sea ? and Always and Forever ?   If you’re reading this… We miss you…   :(   UPDATE: LOVE IS BACK!!!! Shiftay shkether people love you? :) Teenager At Sea has gone private but still here, love ya babe :** Always and Forever is still MIA :(   ANOTHER UPDATE: Wain Um Loai??!! She’s gone tooo!!! :/ I hope everything's fine..

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I saw this pink car in Salmiya today. The car was very acrobatic i must say. Probably maybayen in the picture mala7agt a9werha bas it was somehow dancing. See how its slightly bent? 7asait’ha roller coaster ride. What do you call it when they play with the tires and make it look like its jumping? The guy 7a6 the mexican flag on the back window. Shino ya3ni? Are you mexican? I very much doubt

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  Note: After some making some calculations I have come to realize that I was not 15 but rather 16 years old in the more recent posts. I did meet Fahad when I was 14, i vividly remember that, so the story is now around 2 years into the relationship. A long post, because i love you guys :***** -----------------------------   It was the morning of my 17th birthday. I had gotten quite a few

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So there’s this writer that i found yesterday and she is 7adha 7adha incredible. I am LOVING her story. I think its a real story and it doesn’t look like it’s gonna have much of a happy ending but its very interesting nonetheless. So ch-ch-check out one of my favourite new writers! http://alwaysandforeverr.blogspot.com/   PS. I knoooow that i’ve been neglecting my story and ur sick and tired

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Who got the Gossip Girl comment last night? Awal ma i opened it i was like WTF? Min 9ijha hathi? This girl watches way too much TV.Ashof she deleted her blog this morning!Did you comment on her blog? If yes, what did you say to make her shut it down? Madri laish bas i would love to know :PAham shay "The Site ABOUT Kuwait, FOR Kuwait and BY Kuwait!"Wain ga3den?!*Update:For those of you who don't

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From: Fahad 7adich wanasteni! Min 9ijech? Agdar akalmech al7een? Wallah inni walhan 3ala 9otech.   Should i call him? I really want to sleep 3ala his voice. I miss that so much. So i called him. It rang twice before he picked up.   Fahad: "Hala ib galbi" Me: "Hala 7ayati.. " Fahad: "Shlooon il 7ilwa?" Me: "Hehe zaina.. Inta shlonek?" Fahad: "Taben il 9ij?" Me: "Yes please" Fahad: "Kint

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  This has been such a miserable week. So depressing. I want to cry :( Some grades were not as expected, found out that a so called friend is not what she seems to be, and to top it all of, we’ve lost a family member this week. Allah yer7amha.. She wasn’t close but death is always hard for everybody.. Anyway I decided to answer all your questions today! :) Note: I have no idea why

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Dear Gorgeous and Fantabulous Readers,To be honest with everybody ana 9ayra maaaaaali 5ilg i write anything oo my mind has gone blank oo mo ga3da athker details to fill the story. Im not saying that the story is ending, laa bagelaha probably waaayed.So anyway to get me out of this slump how about you ask me questions about anything you like, anything about any of the characters in the story or

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Again I am sooooooooo x 100 sorry. This is dedicated to all my readers :***Thank you all for waiting for me during my exams and thank you for your support, inshallah inshallah I get good grades.Love you aaaall :**********-------------------------------------------------------------------------------I have absolutely no will power. I cannot stay away from Fahad. I loved him a bit too much. I need

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Dear gorgeous readers,I know ini 7adi 9ayra maleqa oo sa5efa oo i'm not posting bas wallah i have midterms this week oo ilyom 7adi zafat ib one one of them so i really need this time to study. Please bare with me for a couple more days oo ill be posting soon inshallah..Love you all :***

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Cupid tara this is for you :***---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I became miserable since the day i did that horrible deed. I thought about nothing but him. I started missing him the second i did it.Lulu and Farah tried to make me feel better about it. They took me out. They called me constantly. They came over a lot. They

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Fahad: "Wallah i love you 7abebti.."Me: "I love you more Fahodi.."Fahad: "Ha labsa 3adel? Are you warm?"Me: "Ee"Fahad: "Are you tucked in?"Me: "Yep"Fahad: *Kiss* "Te9be7en 3ala 5air ya galbi"Me: "Winta min ahala.."Fahad: "Inzain ask me. Shda3wa bas ana ili i care ya3ni?"Me: "Hehehe ok. Are you tucked in?"Fahad: "Laa"Me: "Umm"Fahad: "Hahaha shfeeech?Me: "Hehe nothing.. Inzain are you warm? Labes

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Nearly everyone voted for a longer post tonight. Here you go :)Love you all :*****---------------------------------------------------------------------------------I woke up the next day bright and early so i can go to school. I texted Fahad and the guys from school.To: Fahad9aba7 il 5air 7abebi :* I'm gonna go to school ba3ad shway so i may not be able to talk to you.. Text me when you wake up..

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Dear Readers,You have a choice between one of the following..a) Short post now.b) Long post bacher.c) Long post bas later tonightVote now!Wallah i'm sorry for not posting you guys bas i have 2 midterms next week oo i'm swamped with homework and studying. I'm writing a new post al7een bas 3ashan ma aza3elkom..I love you guys :***

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A super duper long post for all of you to say sorry for not posting in so long, i've been busy :/Love you all :******* ---------------------------------------------------------------------We decided to out with 3am Fahad, A7mad and his fiancé the next weekend. I made Fahad arrange a coffee outing instead of lunch or dinner, I didn't want to spend so much time with them, and I know I would most

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I made reservations at the Kei in the JW Marriot. My parents love the place, they sometimes take us there for our family weekend dinners. Rarely ikon fi a7ad mawjod, which is perfect. I just need to make sure that none of my parents will be anywhere near and we'll be fine.I was worried about paying the bill. I went online to check on my NBK account. I had spent so much money on Fahad's birthday

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Today, i was on my way home from jam3a willa i see this pick-up truck maktob 3alaiha on the back:(This is for midgets and bugs.)Shino ya3ni?!!??! Or more importantly laaaaish??! Hehehehe bas i loved it though :PMishat bser3a i couldn't take a picture :PSo i called my best friend 7amodi to tell him about it. He told me about some other stickers that he saw.Ako this guy in a Ferrari driving around

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After my morning with Fahad, i went home, had a shower then went out to lunch with my family.I had plans with Lulu, 3azoz, 7amani and Fawaz that afternoon to go see possible venues for our graduation. I hesitated on whether to tell Fahad. I was afraid that if i didn't he might see me out with them oo isaweli salfa so i called him.Fahad: "Aloo"Me: "7ayati.."Fahad: "Intay 7ayati"Me: "7abebi.."Fahad

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It has been a month since I had last seen Fahad, ever since that incident we hadn't gone out together. I missed him terribly. I wanted to take a closer look at his face to make sure that all really was forgiven. I woke up at 6 as usual. I called Fahad 3ala 6ol.Fahad: "Hmmm"Me: "7ayati goooom!"Fahad: "hmmmm"Me: "9aba7 il 5air 7abebi"Fahad: "9aba7 hmmmmm"Me: "FAHAD! GOOOM!!"Fahad: "HA HA shino?

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I sat down on my bed with a pen and paper. I had to plan out what i wanted to say to him when i talked to him about this. I knew that if i didn't i would probably chicken out and just agree with anything that Fahad said. I wrote down some notes to remind me and some pep talk on the side to encourage me to go on, a3aref nafsi ridiya, i might back out at any moment.Me: "Hey 7ayati.. Are you busy?

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I accidentally deleted part 24 :P anyway here it is again for those who haven't already read it.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I was fine with our little arrangement. Whenever I was gonna go out i would text him asking him for permission to go and i would mention who i was going with. It was worth it

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I looked down and avoided his glare. The only people who know about him were Farah and Lulu. Lulu has never actually met him, Farah has seen him a couple of times when we accidently bump into him when were out. Of course i never told any of the guys. They were like my brothers, mara7 yir’6on. Oh my god! What is he gonna do? I know what he saw was completely inappropriate but its Fawaz! It so

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Since it was my last year in school i wanted to make every single second count. I joined and participated in anything i can. I joined the graduation committee. Our aim was to raise money and to plan our graduation. We organized a bunch of activities in order to raise money, like a car wash, school parties, we sold food, we had our own games stand at the carnival and much more. It was fun. I

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Bit ClarificationOk so while looking through all the parts of the story i came to realize that i didn't mention how old i was in the later posts. I actually did meet Fahad when i was 14 and in the later parts I'm probably nearer to 15 -16 since it was my last year in school. I really can't remember the timeline of all the events that happened I'm just randomly remembering stuff and writing them..

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How much do jam3a books cost? I have no idea how much to give him.. Akeed they cost a lot 3ashan chithi his dad went crazy oo refused to give him the money. Ista7ait as2ila how much he wants. The next day I went to the bank after school oo sa7abt 100 KD, i think that would be enough.. I later called Fahad oo asked him if we can meet up later today at the palms.. I really wanted to go swimming bas

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Fahad called me very late that night. I was in bed waiting for him and had accidentally slept.Me: "Aloo"Fahad: "7ayati nayma?"Me: "No i was waiting for you.."Fahad: "Juju it's ok, go back to sleep, i'll talk to you bacher."Me: "No Fahodi i'm up. I miss you."Fahad: "7ayati intay, are you sure?"Me: "Ee."Fahad: "Inzain 3ayal you have to tell me if you feel sleepy ok?"Me: "Inshallah.. How are you

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I still don't have my laptop back! 9afar my computer guy decided to install a bootleg copy of Vista on it oo 5arabliyah.. Its brand new! I just got it this summer.. I hate you 9afar! I'm using my brother's :( I had to rewrite this part.. Sorry it's so late you guys I just didn't have a computer to post from and I hate spending any extra time in jam3a when I don't have to so I didn’t use any of

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Hey everyone.. Sorry no post tonight.. My laptop just crashed oo mora'6i yafta7! Laa oo i had just finished typing up the story! Bas it was in a word file so its not saved on blogger so i can't publish it :/ Im posting this from my phone, too annoying.. Get a good nights sleep people.. Love you all :***

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Things went back to normal after that incident. Fahad and I still talked to each other every day and night as if nothing had happened. We were just thankful that we didn’t get separated. That day we felt exactly how much we loved each other and how much we cared for one another. I couldn't have lived without Fahad. I loved him so much!Three days later…I had just arrived home from school. I got my

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SHIT SHIT SHIIIIIIT!!!! Shasawi??!! Me: "Fahad it's my cousin!! GO GO wa5er 3ani!"Fahad: "7ayati I'm so sorry.."Me: "Just go! Ba3dain ba3dain!"Fuck! I panicked.. I ran into one of the stores, locked myself in one of the changing rooms and cried. I am in deep trouble. What the hell should I do? I sat there and cried for about 10 minutes then called my dad to come pick me up. I called Fahad

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It seems like we got closer and closer to each other as each day went by. We talked about everything, we knew each other's every little personal detail. We also became a little more intimate. We went to palms quite a lot and made out whenever we were alone.We have been dating for quite a while. Our relationship was near perfect. We didn’t have any major fights, just small arguments which we would

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Dedicated to Finicky :****---------------------------------------------------------------------------It was my very first kiss. I don't know what to do! Where should I put my hands? How do people kiss? Should I open my mouth? Did I remember to brush my teeth? Shit! What the hell am I doing?! A million questions were going through my head, I couldn't just sit back and enjoy it. I pulled back. I

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Fahad couldn't come early to Palms, he had to take his sister to the doctor and since the next day I had school, I couldn't be late, so I decided to go early and go to the gym by myself and when I'm finished he would have arrived and we could spend at least a few minutes together.I went to the Palms at around 4 that day. It wasn't quite empty but not really full of people, just the right amount.

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My phone rang awal ma rikabt il sayara. 6ab3an it was Fahad! Me: "Aloo"Fahad: "Ana mo mistaw3eb! Did you just kiss me?"Me: "LAA!"Fahad: "Hehehe shino ya3ni? Ana ta5ayalt?"Me: "Hehehe ummm madri"Fahad: "Juju… A7ebech!!"Me: " Ana a7ebek ba3ad"Fahad: "Juju.. 7ubi.. Wallah ana lema al7een mo m9adeg! How am I gonna sleep tonight?! I am never gonna wash my face again!!"Me: "Hehehe wai3!"Fahad: "

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After our first date our calls became even more frequent. We talked to each other all day and all night. After we came back from school and jam3a we would have lunch then stay on the phone until il ma'3arb after that we would go do our homework and dirasa or whatever we had to do then go back to talking to each other until bedtime. I would sometimes go to school only having slept for 1 or 2

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Hey everyone..I'm so sorry you guys but i don't think i'm gonna post anything tonight, i'm not feeling too well.. Inshallah i'll try and write another part bacher.. Sorry..Luv u guys..xxx

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Our first couple of dates were wonderful! We were oblivious to anyone and anything around us. All we saw was each other. I loved him and he loved me, that’s all that mattered to either of us.On our first date we decided to go to a movie. We went on a school day. On that particular day, we had Spirit Day in school so my mom let me skip and stay home. He had jam3a but that day but he managed to get

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I learned so much about Fahad. I fell deeper and deeper in love with him every day.. I needed him and he needed me.We were somehow alike, just like my mother was with me, his father was the same, only much much worse. His father hit him. Fahad was physically abused at home. Fahad has five brothers but his father singled him out from the rest. His abuse was out of control. He had rage blackouts,

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We opened up to each other about everything in our lives. We told each other our problems. We revealed our deepest and darkest secrets that not even our best friends knew about. We were each other's comfort and reassurance. We trusted each other. I trusted him...I told him about how my mother treated me. I've always felt like she hated me. My mom comes back from her very stressful day at work

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Ihya shako feeni 3ashan tgoli to stay away from Fahad?! I don't need her. I can make my own decisions.That was when i made my decision to start calling Fahad. I wanted to do it out of 3nad for her. Ya3ni she comes to me so unexpectedly oo itgoli to leave him, shes the one who set us up!Later that night i went on MSN. Fahad was online waiting for me.Fahad: 7imdillah 3al salama 7abebti :*Me: Allah

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On our first day back we were met at the airport by Reem and her dad. I hugged her, i missed her alot. I didn't want to let her go. She was gonna be leaving me in a couple of days go study in the states. I would have one less person to talk to. One less person by my side.She pulled me close while sitting in the car and we started whispering.Reem: "So anything new with the eyebrow?"Me: "hehehe

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My parents owned an apartment in Vauxhall overlooking the river. It was beautiful. When i was a child, every time we came back from an outing i would take my little pink and white glittery barbie skates along with a bag of old bread then go down to the river to skate and feed the ducks. I longed for those simpler times. I wish life wasn't so complicated..I was miserable in London from day one.

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He was so much fun. We chatted every single day for the next few weeks until it was time for my safra. We talked about anything and everything. It didn't really matter about what as long as we talked. Reem stayed with me the first few days, telling me whats appropriate to say and whats not. Theres so much i had to learn.We were "Friends", there was no mention of the L word, just innocent flirting

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He had already tried chatting with me when i was away.Fahad: Gowa, Jude shlonech?Fahad: 3arafteni? Im the guy in palms today.. Ur cousin gave me ur email i hope thats ok...Fahad: Jude?Fahad: Hello?Shasawiiiiii? I was freaking out. Wagt il 9ijiya i couldnt say a thing. I kept typing then erasing what i wanted to say, i couldnt think of anything intelligent to start off with. So what did i do? I

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I was furious with Reem. We walked towards Raju and got into the car.Me: "We don't know anything about the guy! What if he's a weirdo? What if he's a serial killer? Or a rapist??!!!"Reem: "Relax Jude, we're not in an episode of CSI! Oo ba3dain all I did was give him your e-mail, not your home phone number. Why are you freaking out? 5ayfa yi6la3lech from the computer screen and strangles you? Tell

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That summer my parents decided to postpone our safra until just before august and spend a month in London before coming back for school in September, we usually spend the first 2 months in the US and then go to London for about 2 weeks but that year my parents had allot of work to do so we didn't. I had absolutely nothing to do for 2 whole months. Both farah and lulu had left for London before me

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I used to be a good girl. I had perfect grades, i was in advanced classes in school and i was allowed to take my IGCSEs a year earlier than most of the other kids. I was very active in school, i was one of the leads in the school play. My parents we're proud, my whole extended family was proud. I felt like i can do anything!As i said, i was a good girl. None of my guy friends tried to hook up

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My name is Jude, i'm from Kuwait, this is my very first blog. I decided to start blogging and confess some things that i've had bottled up for quite a while. I'm not proud of what i'm about to confess but i just need to let it out. I'm a very quite person in real life so this is gonna be really hard for me. I don't show my true feeling to anyone. This is about my past. Im a completely different

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